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Chapter 181
I have been trying to call her, but I’m not sure if I’m blocked or her phone is off. Rosie is going to be the death of me. I still can’t believe that she wants us to get a divorce. I thought that she considered me her forever just like I have always considered her mine. I know that I have given her a hard time, it why did she have to leave now? Why couldn’t she just wait for a little bit longer? I was going to tell her the news today. I just needed one more day.
Emily is home today, so I quickly drive there. I know I’m not supposed to drive for long distances, but my health is the least of my concerns now. I need to find my wife. I’m not going to give up on finding her.
1 practically jump out of my car the moment I reach her parents place. I ring the doorbell and wait for anybody to open the door for me. Maybe Rosie will open it for me, but I don’t think Rosie is here. If she were, she would have taken her car. Instead, it’s still parked at our house.
Emily is the one who opens the door for me.
“Emily, is Rosie here?” I frantically ask her.
“Come in, Silas,” she says. She steps aside, giving me way to walk inside.
The two of us head to the living room. I half expect to see Rosie inside, but disappointment fills me when I don’t find her. I thought I would find her curled up on the couch, refusing to face me and I would beg and plead until she’d come back home with me. I just want to see her face. I want to take her in my arms, apologize for everything I have put her through and take her home.
Do you know where Rosie is?” I ask her, taking a seat.
“I do,” she says, keeping her answer short.
“I have been trying to reach her, but her phone is out of service. I don’t know how to reach her,” I tell her.
“Silas, I believe my daughter has already told you what she wants. She is clearly stressed and needs to be away from you. Why can’t you understand that?” This is my first time having Emily this cold towards me.
“I’m not going to give up on my wife, Emily. I love her. I love her so much and I can’t let her go. I made a mistake and I’m going to fix it. I went to a therapist yesterday and today, I enrolled myself in an alcohol rehabilitation program. I booked a vacation for us and I… I’m ready to change for her. I’m ready to do anything she wants.” Not having Emily on my side feels weird, but I messed up a lot. I hurt her daughter and she has every right to hate me for doing that.
“Where’s my wife, Emily?” I plead with her. “Let me make things right, please. Tell me where she is and I won’t make her regret forgiving me.”
“She wants to be away from you, Silas. Give her that,” Emily replies.
“So you know where she is?” I ask with hope. I want to make sure that she’s okay and safe.
“Of course, but she doesn’t want you to know. As her mother, I’m inclined to respect her wishes.” I bury my face in my hands at her words. “You have caused enough damage, Silas. She needs to be away from you to heal.” The fact that her words are the do not make them any less painful.
“I know I hurt her, but I want to fix everything. Emily… she left me divorce papers. I can’t let her go.” The mere idea of having Rosie away from me tears my heart into pieces. I can’t accept this.
“Divorce papers?” The frown on Emily’s face tells me that she knows nothing about what her daughter has done. “Rosie left you divorce papers?” I nod at her question. Did Rosie tell her that we were on a break?
“She even signed them,” I add, looking down. I understand that have been a terrible husband, but why did she firmly
believe that I was a lost cause? Were my actions that unforgivable? I didn’t mean for things to get that bad.
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She told me that she was going to keep her distance from you til Sabrina and Knox’s wedding, but I knew nothing about divorce.” Emily admits and 1 sigh heavily, not knowing what to tell her.
“I want to talk to her, Emily.” Theg. but she looks at me apologetically
“I promised her I wouldn’t tell you where she is, but if there’s anything you want to tell her, you can let me know and I will deliver the message,” Emily offers.
For a moment, I feel like maybe telling Emily anything is pointless, but the state of despair I’m in reminds me that I need to cling on to whatever opportunity I can find to bring Rosie back me.
“Tell her I’m so sorry and I love her so much. Tell her that I have already enrolled myself in an alcohol rehabilitation program and I’ve been sober for two days. They may not be much, but they count, right?” Emily nods before gently rubbing my back.
“I will tell her everything. I promise,” she assures me.
“You do know that I love her more than anything in my life, right?” I feel like I need to remind Emily of that. Maybe I need to remind Julian too. Maybe if they’re certain that I’m head over heels for their daughter, they will support me.
“I know, Silas. I know you love her.” She smiles at me.
I get up from my place and make my way to my car. I have a strong urge to drink, but I cannot give in to my demons. Not now. I need to prove to Rosie that I’m still the man she fell in love with. I’m not sure if she still loves me or not I’m not sure if my actions have pushed her away to the point that she can no longer stand me.
Idrive straight home and the moment I arrive, I get rid of every type of liquor I have. I need to have a fresh start. I need to
be a better person.
I’m not going to take her leaving the ring behind and signing the divorce papers seriously. I understand her anger and pain. I understand that I made her reach her breaking point, but I have a firm belief that I can change, that there’s still light at the end of the tunnel. I’m certain we can get through this together.
I open my Instagram account and decide to message her. The media scrutinizes every move we make and I’m sure she doesn’t want any sort of negative publicity, so she probably hasn’t blocked or unfollowed me. Luckily, I’m right. I quickly send her a message, hoping that she replies, but I know that the chances are slim.
The media has already been talking about my absence from her fashion show. They have already published many annoying speculations, stating that this could be the downfall of our marriage. I hate that strangers managed to see what I failed to see.
I have been so blind lately, thinking that she is a constant in my life, but it turns out I have been wrong. It was a mistake to take her for granted, but I’m sure that this is a mistake I can fix and I won’t stop until Rosie is back home.
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