Chapter 33
He took them in his hands, and flipped them over seeing my bruised knuckles that now had purple rings around them and were throbbing and then his body seemed to stiffen altogether. He took my right wrist and brought it to his nose, my heart stopped when his eyes flicked up to me. It had been the wrist the beta grabbed, and I knew his scent had to be on it, which meant Dez knew. I dropped his gaze looking at the floor instead of his piercing gaze.
I knew I had lied to him and I felt a bit guilty but I didn’t want that beta to die just because he touched me.
“Kendal go wait outside for me” he said, his voice had taken a deadly tone, and he put his hand on my waist pulling me forward, my body crashed into his, and the warmth between us immediately sparked. I knew he was just pulling me forward to get me out of this wretched chair, but I didn’t care I wrapped my arms around him, feeling him freeze under me.
I didn’t care, I fisted my hands in his shirt behind his neck and buried my head I his neck, taking the moment in because I was pretty sure this would never ever happen again. I knew I was basically violating him but my body was so warm and pleasure was radiating through every part of me. I loved being in contact with him, I loved how his scent burned my nose and how warm I felt. He pushed me back abruptly, a sharp pain went through my chest. I needed him right now and he was pushing me away. He pulled his shirt off handing it to me, hiding me from view, I slipped it on and it fell to my knees.
“Go” he said his voice had taken a low husky tone, I went to the door and closed the door behind me. I sat down in the hallway trying to listen for anything I could pick up on. Unfortunately most alpha’s offices were soundproof, and I couldn’t pick up on anything.
I was still worrying about what Dez would do about me hugging him. I mean I basically forced myself on him, but I couldn’t help myself, I needed to do it. I knew if I hadn’t I would be a mess right now. He was my rock, the sole reason I was emotionally stable, I needed him sometimes.
I needed him now and he had pushed me away. It hurt, a lot more than I wanted to give credit for but I understood, he probably wasn’t used to people touching him and I did it out of no where.
I knew I as making up lame excuses for him pushing me away, but it felt better using them as the excuse rather than the alternative. Which happened to be that he didn’t want me. I knew he probably didn’t, but his mark sat permanently on my neck, he had me whether he wanted me or not. And hopefully sometime in the future he wouldn’t push me away. It may take time and I’m definitely not a patient person but waiting for Dez to come around seemed to be the only other option.
I knew it was stupid what I did. I should’ve have done it, and I’m not promising to not do it again. I had a bad habit of acting on impulse and most of the time it seemed to end with someone dying. Impulsively deciding to go on a patrol with Dez got Grey killed. The alpha was dead and I impulsively decided embracing my mate for the first time was right even thought I got pushed away not 2 seconds later.
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Chapter 33
About 5 minutes later Dez yanked the door opened and closed it behind him,
“Let’s go” he said without stopping or even glancing in my direction, I got up and scrambled after him, instead of going back to the bedroom he took me outside to his truck.
“Get in” he said and I got in obediently, I didn’t know what was going on. He got in and started driving.
“Kendal” he said after a while his voice had a serious tone to it like it always did but he seemed to be extra stern right now. I looked at him fiddling with my shirt chewing on my lip.
“What you did in there was very stupid” he spit out like he had a bad taste in his mouth. I didn’t know which part he was referring to, hugging him or leaving in the middle of the night.
“You should know not to be near me when I’m angry, much less touch me. I could’ve killed you” he told me setting his jaw. My heart sank, I knew he was right but it still hurt a little. I let out a small sigh and looked out the window, mulling over things. He touched my arm gently and a shockwave went up my arm I immediately froze and turned to him. He was still looking at the road jaw clenched, hands gripping the steering wheel so hard his knuckles were almost white, he reached down and pushed the middle part up glancing at me briefly before returning his eyes to the road.
