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I chewed on my lip my mind with the dilemma. I had to choose between innocent lives and the life of my child. I could feel the tears welling up again, and this time they weren’t happy tears. I wrapped my arms around myself.
Another thing was imprinted in my brain that I couldn’t get off my mind. Dezmond had said he was in love with me.
Did I believe him?
He’s cheated on me, treated me like shit, put me through hell, played with my emotions and broken my heart. But in some twisted way he thinks he loves me?
The weak part of me that fell for him wanted so badly to believe he loved me.
But I couldn’t let myself fall for him. There was too much damage. I told myself id never fall for him again. I had to stay strong.
All I could think about was the fear in his eyes. He looked so vulnerable. My heart was hurting in my chest remembering. He could take on the world and take down anything in his path. But I knew that the baby scared him. He told me before when we were discussing it. He didn’t want me to die, and he didn’t
want to share me.
But now there wasn’t a choice.
I needed to call Jay to find out why our baby was in danger and I needed to call James to tell him about our baby so he can prep for early delivery.
But all I really wanted to do right now was find my mate and some dang pretzels because I was craving them. I sighed and rubbed my head and then closed my eyes focusing on Dez’s small link connected in the very back of my mind that I had been trying to will away for months.
He was pushing me out so hard, it was giving me a headache. I nudged a little at a time and finally he pulled away, relieving the pounding migraine I had developed suddenly.
“Come back” I said, he didn’t respond and I didn’t poke around in his head, I pulled myself out of his little world and went to the kitchen in search of some pretzels. I dug around in the cabinet stepping over little chucks of sheetrock carefully. I sat on the counter and found some crackers which would do.
Finally after about an hour the door opened and Dez walked in, shirtless, and covered in sweat. I thoroughly looked him over probably drooling, I had plans to talk to him about everything going on, but lets face it, I’m still a horny teenager at heart so I jumped off the counter and made my way too him, almost trembling with excitement. He watched my movements carefully narrowing his eyes as I jumped
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I reached up as far as I could and pulled him down. His warm lips landed on mine and it took all the self control I had in my body to not moan. I started pulling him down the hallway slowly, and he was being
stiff.
“Kendal-” he said stopping me and putting me against the wall.
“We’re not-”
“why?” I asked my voice soft and noticeably sad.
“not right now, I need to be focused the rest of the day.” He told me his voice stern. I melted right there but tried to put a lock on my hormones, because no matter how much I hated it, I knew deep down he
was right.
“Okay well we can just talk then” he didn’t look too thrilled with that idea either.
“About?” he questioned.
“what we need to do. I don’t want innocent women dying because of me Dez.”
“I’m not giving you to those worthless tw-”
“I’m not sacrificing myself. I did too much begging to get this baby, there’s no way in hell I’m letting someone touch our baby” I replied sternly, he raised an eyebrow but I could see a smirk on his face, I raised an eyebrow in response to his perfect pink lips. He dove down and connected our lips and started walking me back to the bedroom.
After a couple hours I woke up and Dez was gone as always, the fan was on high and there was a thin sheet tangled around my naked body. I was sore, but I knew I was probably healing a million times faster now with all the extra blood and hormones pumping through my body. I sighed and didn’t even bother to move, knowing if I did it would result in excruciating pain or puke. I fixed my pillow and went right
back to sleep.
I woke up to someone rubbing my back, I made a little noise of protest from them pulling me out of deep sleep but turned towards the heat. I braced myself for the nausea as i twisted my body but didn’t feel anything besides the heat and tingles Dez’s large warm hand was sending through my core.
“Kendal, go take a shower, we’re leaving in an hour” Dez’s deep husky voice said sending chills down my spine. Even his voice was enough to turn me on.
“Take one with me” I suggested timidly into the pillow, still not moving my body, my eyes were already drooping again.
“Kendal do as you’re told.” Dez said sternly. I let out a little huff of breath in response and then sat up and
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stretched trying to ignore the burning feeling in my muscles as they flexed against the stiffness. My eyes watered but I knew stretching might make it feel better, I could hear the shower already running, so I got up slowly and then tried to walk feeling tingles erupt on my elbow, I could feel Dez’s fingertips touching my arm lightly to guide me. I rolled my eyes but didn’t comment.
He helped me in the shower and then literally stood there waiting for me to finish, I washed my body and then my hair and then reached for a towel. Instead Dez pulled the glass door opened and pulled me out, he picked me up and set me on a towel on the counter top and with another towel he dried each limb of my body thoroughly. I watched in puzzlement as he concentrated hardy on his soft actions, but also tried to soak in the attention. I didn’t speak, and he didn’t either.
He dried my hair carefully and then clipped one of my bras and pulled a t–shirt over my head and then carefully pulled me off the counter and pulled panties and shorts up my legs carefully. Finally, when I was fully dressed he stood up and left. I stared after him and stood there in puzzlement. My mind was blank and I decided to let it process everything later, for now I just focused on brushing my teeth so I could be ready in time and not make him mad. I walked out of the bathroom and he was sitting on the bed in the same position as before, hands dug into hair, sitting on the end of the bed.
I didn’t say anything I just slowly sat beside him and let out a little sigh.
“What was that about?” I asked finally, he looked over at me and waited. “In there” I clarified motioning to the bathroom door.
“You’re mine to take care of.” He stated simply and I didn’t push him on the subject, we loaded up after
about 15 minutes and then we were on our way.
“I’m taking you to your father’s” Dez finally told me.
“What?” I said in alarm sitting straighter staring at him, my heart started to race. He didn’t respond.
“Why?” I urged.
“You’ll be safer there. I’ve already pissed off lot of demons, I dont want you on my territory in case they
come back”
“No, I’m not leaving you. I thought your territory was safe from demons…” he didn’t respond or acknowledge what I had said at all.
“Dez” I finally said after a while wanting him to say something, he looked over at me but still didn’t say
anything.
“I’m not going to my dads.” I said finally crossing my arms over my chest. His lip twitched but he didn’t say anything.
“Have you talked to Jay?” I asked after a little while, he ignored me as always.
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“Dez” I nagged.
“Be quiet.” he finally said. I could feel blood rush through my body and I raised my eyebrows.
“Who the fuck-” I started angrily.
“Kendal” he said cutting me off. His tone was deadly and I shut my mouth. He clenched his jaw but returned his cold eyes to the road. I sighed and threw myself back into the seat.
