Chapter 138
“Let me go Dez, I’m going home, I’m not any of your concern anymore. And I’m not going anywhere with you.” I said lowly, not able to get my voice any higher without it cracking.
“Kendal. You don’t have a choice. I’m going to talk to Jayden and your father about it later, but they will both agree that you’re safer with me.” I stared up at him and begged him with my eyes to just let me go. I didn’t want to be pulled back into this, I could already feel my heart hurting in my chest.
“Dezmond, why do you care if I’m safe or not, since when do you give a shit about me?” I questioned
hardly letting my anger mask my pain.
“You’re mine. Letting you get killed would impair my ability to do my job, and make me weak.” I glared at him, but what did I expect? He said it, he didn’t love me, and he didn’t care about me. It made sense, when we mated he grew stronger, mentally and physically, when a mate dies, you become vulnerable. You’re weak mentally more than anything, but physically as well. If he lost his strength, he wouldn’t be able to lead his pack, attack other packs, or even think correctly.
I stared at him. I hated him. I hated him more than anything in the world. He openly just told me to my face that he wants to keep me safe for his benefit. I looked into his eyes, and I searched finding nothing. Legitimately nothing.
How could someone survive being this cold hearted? How could he be like this? How?
“I’ll be fine at my dad’s” I whispered to him, he shook his head not accepting my answer.
“Kendal, if you honestly think your father is going to tell me no about taking you with me then you’re even more stupid then I thought” he said letting irritation slip into his voice, I rolled my eyes and he grabbed my arm and took me out the door and put me in his truck. I didn’t fight him.
“I want to go home and get my stuff” I lied, he rolled his eyes but nodded. I was shocked that he actually agreed with me.
“Really?” I accidently blurted out in surprise.
“Sure, I’m looking forward to seeing Jay tell you all about his new position in office” he said smugly, my chest was tight and I tried to breathe normally but I couldn’t. I needed to stay strong. Even just for a little while. I held my tears at bay and forced the pain and doubts about Jay back into my mind along with everything else I had been holding back.
I wasn’t going to let Dez see me like that.
The drive over wasn’t too bad, I stayed silent, my hands crossed over my chest. At some point Dez reached over and pried my hand from my chest and then clasped his in mine. I stared numbly at his
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hand in mine resting on the console. What the fuck was he doing, I jerked my hand out of his like it had
burned me.
“What the hell are you doing?” I demanded, he looked over at me and then shook his head a wide grin spread across his face. Was he really playing with me right now? Just trying to make me break? He was enjoying this. I felt sick to my stomach, I couldn’t even bear to look at the monster sitting next to me.
Finally, we got there and I was out of the truck before he even fully put it in park. I went into Jay’s house and found Eric sitting there along with my father. God, were we making this a weekly thing. I stopped in the doorway for a split second and then slammed it shut behind me, I put myself in my dad’s arms and stayed there, Jay looked confused and I glared at him.
Then the door opened and my wonderful mate walked into the room and Jay’s face twisted into complete fury.
“What the fuck are you doing here?” Jay snarled.
“Just came to watch the show” Dez stated smugly setting himself on the couch. I had never seen this side of him, normally he was calm and collected and intimidating as hell. But now he was a complete asshole. I wasn’t sure which side of him I hated more.
“Kendal, go get your things” Dez said to me, I raised my eyebrows.
“I don’t take orders from you” I stated but went upstairs anyways. I knew they were talking downstairs, each stair I took the more I couldn’t breathe. Now that I was finally alone, I could feel everything caving in on me, I could feel myself starting to shake and my nose burned. But then as I got into Jay and I’s room I could hear someone at the bottom of the stairs. I went into the bathroom and took a few deep breaths shoving the feelings away again.
I stared at myself in the mirror calming myself down until I had a complete handle on myself. I went to the closet and Jay was standing there.
