Chapter 95
He shook his head, “Kendal, even if you survived. The baby would be too strong for you. You would die in childbirth.” He told me shaking his head again.
“But I’m willing to try. James says that we can deliver early and that-”
“Kendal. No.” he said cutting me off.
Why not?” I asked my voice cracking as tears started falling once again.
“I told you that I will not do that to you. I will not put you through that.”
“But-”
“No.” he said finally his voice hardening.
“Why can’t we just try?” I pleaded.
My child growing inside of you would tear you apart from the inside. Your body can’t handle that. I know that you want a baby, but what’s the point of having a baby if you’re not here to raise it.”
“Because it will be ours. A part of me will still live on, and it will-”
“No.” Dez said raising his voice he looked like he had heard enough.
“We don’t need a baby if you’re not here to raise it. I will not sacrifice you for a child.” He sounded like he had made his mind up, I stared at him as I cried and he didn’t give in, he didn’t look regretful or remorseful. Finally I fell into him and cried. He didn’t say anything, he let me cry on him and stayed quiet, his fingers brushed over the only parts of me he could touch without moving his arm.
“Kendal. There is nothing that is worth your life to me. If you died and the child lived. I would resent
it, I would refuse to raise it. I told you that I cannot be a father.”
“You’re wrong.” I told him, he stayed silent.
“What if everything would’ve gone right though, and we’re passing up the only opportunity we will ever have Dez?” I asked sitting back up wiping tears.
I’m not willing to gamble your life at any cost.” He responded.
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But what if everything went right?” I repeated.
I cant be a father Kendal, I cant help raise a child. Especially a child who I would have to share the most important aspect of my life with he said sounding almost bitter. I was puzzled. He didn’t want
to share me with our child?
“That’s selfish” I whispered, he hummed in response.
We laid there for a little while before James came in and took his vitals.
“Have we made a decision?” he asked causing tears to come back in my eyes, I pulled away from him and looked at him, begging him with my eyes even though I knew he wasn’t budging on the
situation.
“Would you like to slow the healing process?” James inquired, and to my surprise, Dez nodded, I gave him a questioning look. What is he doing? James nodded.
“I’ll be back with the treatment” James said and then left.
“What are you doing?” I asked.
“It will be nice to be able to touch you and hold you without worrying about breaking you for a day
or two” he told me.
“Oh…” I said and nodded in response, snuggling back into his side. “Does that mean you’re going to spend the next two days with me?” I asked and he nodded, I grinned. I could be happy with what I’m getting. Maybe we could complete the process and have sex anyways and just take precautions to not have a baby. Or maybe, I would get pregnant anyways. Accidents happen.
Or maybe
we wouldn’t have sex at all. I didn’t know exactly what he was planning. James came back with a syringe that looked like actual silver.
“Are you injecting him with silver?” I questioned.
“Sort of.”
“Wait” I said. “Wont that hurt him?” I asked looking worriedly at the syringe.
“It will be in his blood stream. The cells will be so busy attacking the silver they won’t heal the body until after its gone. That’s why we’re going to inject it after all the fires are healed.” James said
and he set the syringe down on the table.
“When are you going to do it?” I asked.
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I’ll check in periodically the next few hours and when the injuries are completely healed, I’ll inject it then” James said, I eventually nodded and then he left. I laid back into Dez who was quiet. But what else did I expect from him?
I played with his hand and then leaned up and kissed his cheek, and then his jaw.
“Kendal, what are you doing?” Dez asked me as I kissed his shoulder gently.
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“I love you” was my response as I settled into him. Of course my time with him was short lived because after 5 minutes Michael came in and they started discussing revenge tactics and setting up meeting with my dad. Dez literally couldn’t relax for an hour before jumping back into work. This is what I’m getting myself in to.
Finally being in Dez’s arms, the warmth in my chest radiated to the rest of my body and made my eyes droopy. I snuggled closer into him and let sleep take over listening to his deep voice that vibrated through my body every time he spoke. Eventually I woke up and immediately sat up because I was puzzled. I was in our bed in our room at Dez’s house. I frowned. Was everything just a
dream?